March 16th, 2013
I wrote 9 songs today, shamelessly journaling my progress on fb. The past six months have been the best in my life: surrounded by dear friends, falling in love, music pouring out.
I'm obsessed with Jessica's new series of paintings, and want to dedicate an album to her / them.
Kiri has basically stopped living at Supermoon. I started these songs in her half-emptied bedroom as a quiet act of revolt.
March 17th, 2013
Making my way down the staircase in the morning, I was hit in the stomach by a ghost. Had to catch myself on the banister.
I felt horrible.
Didn't eat all day, dragged myself down the hill to the Roast for tea and fresh air. Freyja was there. I told her, I feel like I'm being beaten up underwater.
May 17th, 2013
These recurring episodes of sudden, unexplainable, knock-you-over dizziness culminated at a Psychic Alliance show with Freyja. I sat in my car throbbing for an hour and a half, unable to see and constantly about to vomit, scared that if I tried to drive home I'd crash or hit someone.
This time, it left me deaf in the left ear to all sounds above the middle register. The specialist later told me nothing could be done to restore my natural hearing. The episodes of vertigo gradually faded out, but the pain in my ear and the inability to hear clearly continue to this day.
I then spent months trying to finish these songs, trying to make something I could feel confident in despite not being able to tell what they truly sounded like. For a few of them, I decided: better if they were intentionally painful to listen to, crackling and hissing and cranked up in the red. Others, I mixed so quietly that parts disappear into the fog. Some are emptied out, just the shell of a song, with no voice or no bass, just rhythm and hues.
October 10th, 2015
I'm releasing a handful of those 9 songs. I might as well accept that this album is never going to be finished.
March 15th, 2013
I modelled for Freyja at a fashion show in a furniture store. Here is the first-ever photo of the two of us together.
In order of appearance: Voice, Acoustic Guitar, Drum Kit, Trap Kits, Piano, Wind Organ, Tonewheel Organ, Electric Organ, Wooden Shell Shaker, Sleigh Bells, Kiarra watching a movie in the other room, Side-Chained Gates and Compressors, Sticks, Bass Clarinet, Brush, Feedback, Benju